Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Here goes nothing

I don't think it's any secret that many people feel unhappy with their appearance in one way or another. Our culture has done a fine job of setting unrealistic standards for the "normal" person to live up to. I love that we are seeing more and more of the "average" body type in Hollywood now.
All that to say that there is nothing wrong with wanting to better your life with being more healthy and active. Even as we spread the message that God created us and He doesn't make mistakes, we can admit that HE didn't but sometimes, most times, we do make mistakes.
For me, I am the heaviest I have ever been....I can't believe I just put that out here for all to see. A couple of years ago I did a weight loss program that really worked for me. I lost almost 40 pounds and was feeling pretty good...then I got pregnant and well, that body went out the window. You combine pregnancy, hormones, bed rest, Donny's accident and having no free time to exercise and you get where I am at now.
And I have decided that enough is enough. I deserve better. My family deserves better, but most of all, my Heavenly Father deserves better. He created me in His image and I owe it to Him to care for myself and to honor Him with every aspect of my life.
So, starting on Monday, 2/28, I am starting the Couch-to-5k Running Plan with a friend. I am also going to start making better choices for my meals and snacks. AND, I want to get back to doing my other exercises.
I guess I am blogging about it so that you can help hold me accountable and go through the journey with me. I encourage you to join along! Post how you are doing and what your struggles are. Let's encourage one another and keep each other going.
Oh boy....here we go...

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Thoughts

For days now I Have been thinking of how much I need to blog. I find it therapeutic and yet terrifying at the same time.
It's so easy to come up with ideas for what to write about but how much of those ideas you are interested in reading is what stops me...I know I don't want to read something dull or run of the mill.
My children provide me fodder often however, I rarely have time to sit and immediately take care of putting it in the blog and so it just gets filed away in the deep dark corners of my brain where it sits and collects brain dust.
I wish I was better.
Really though, my thoughts tonight are not on what silly things they have said or done lately. They are not on what I have cooked that I have pictures of. No, tonight my thoughts are on spiritual matters. I want so badly to have a huge douse of gasoline poured over my waning fire for Jesus. I am so tired of complacency and comfort in my walk with God. I want a burden that runs deep to consume my heart. I want to crave time in the Word as if my life depended on because guess what? IT DOES.
I want to have my heart broken for what breaks my Heavenly Father's. I want to be moved beyond the point of despair for the lost and hurting in this world. I want to feel a major sense of urgency to spread His saving message! I don't want to talk about what "the church needs." I feel it's my time to be selfish. I need to take an inward retreat and get myself in shape so that I can effectively minister to those that God has placed in my charge.
I just want more...anyone feel the way I do?